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What Is My Anxiety Like Now? Reflecting on 2017

The past year has mostly sucked. I knew it was going to be a crappy one as soon as I realized I needed to switch my medication. I’ve had mental health issues for half my life. I knew that trialling new medication had the potential to go either way. I also knew that, should I need […]

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Fears About Returning To Study

This week is Orientation week for uni. Last week, I found the book list for one of my subjects and was getting ahead with some of the reading. I justified it by saying that I loved philosophy and if I knock the most of the heavy reading out of the way now, I’ll have more […]

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Creating A Plan To Be Aware Of Future Relapses

One thing that really terrified me this year was just how bad the anxiety got before I was even aware that it was beyond the usual symptoms. I’ve identified two of the reasons: I was in crisis mode for a lot of that time, for reasons beyond my control. Now I’m actively removing myself from any […]

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How Anxiety Recovery Is Just Like The Flywheel

In 2010, I wrote a little post on my business blog about a concept called the flywheel. Below is an excerpt from that post: In online business, most people fantasise about The Tipping Point. It’s a concept made famous by Malcolm Gladwell in a book of the same name.  It is that magic moment when […]

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Anxiety Seems To Be Treated, But Now Depression Is Playing Up

Last night, I was feeling pretty shit. It’s not uncommon for me to feel like crap, so I thought I’d just ride it out and wait for the meds to properly kick in. Then it hit me: the meds have kicked in. They’ve worked brilliantly. No more suicidal ideation. No having to spend a weekend […]

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Not Doing That Well – As Expected

Yeah. So, I had all these plans to post things. Analysis, research, little observations. All of them could have been useful and made for a fascinating record. Alas, I seem to have either fallen into depression or ran out of energy. I’m going to write about things sequentially just so I have some kind of […]

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Week 1: Medication Transition Update

I am OVER the transition to the new meds. I’ve been through it all before, I know it’s good in the long run blah blah blah. But man, it does a number on your body. It has been 3 days of being officially just on these meds. Yesterday and Monday were fine, just a little […]

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I’m switching my medication

Wow. Intense day, at least emotionally. Today I went to the doctors to get the form for Centrelink. I know I’ve been a slackarse but I’ve just been feeling so shit. He was asking about medication and I mentioned that it felt like it had just stopped working. I hadn’t brought it up in the […]

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Do I identify too strongly as being anxious?

This weekend I was on a research binge when I came across this comment on one of posts on Your Rainforest Mind. Once someone has an identity rooted in a disease or disorder, to recover means to lose their identity. If they spend 8 hours a day online with their fellow sufferers, then to recover […]