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Anxiety Disorder

My body is in crisis mode

I haven’t been blogging much lately – anywhere. I’ve talked about my fear of crashing and finally, it happened. It’s been a bit shocking. Sometimes, I think that because my mind feels high functioning and I avoid most situations that trigger me, I *perceive* myself as being better then I am. Because I am doing […]

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Therapy

My Schemas are out of whack

I thought I had them mostly under control. I don’t pressure myself to be perfect in all areas of my life, nor do I overcompensate by letting my life fall apart just to provide that schema right. I do what I do, when I can do it. I’m proud of who I am even though […]

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Screw The Tipping Point. It’s All About The Flywheel Effect, Baby.

In online business, most people fantasize about The Tipping Point. It’s a concept made famous by Malcolm Gladwell in a book of the same name.  It is that magic moment when an idea, trend, or social behavior crosses a threshold, tips, and spreads like wildfire. Many people assume that when their online brand takes off, they’re […]

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Anxiety Disorder Giftedness

How My Brain Works: Mindmap 2

Last month, I did a rough mindmap of how my brain works. I was quite proud of it – until I saw it’s flaws. I’d lumped physical symptoms in with psychological processes and personality traits. This was useful in the first iteration, as it gave me an overview of what I was dealing with. It made […]

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Anxiety Disorder

“I Just Want To Run Away”

I had a much needed catch up with a friend on the weekend. We were both exhausted, although in my case it was due to a pesky migraine that hadn’t responded to meds. After I’d said it about 8 times she asked “What do you want to run away from?” The question sort of pushed […]

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Anxiety Disorder Giftedness

How My Brain Works: Mindmap 1

Yesterday, I accidentally discovered executive dysfunction. I had words to describe what was happening mentally. I’ll be exploring that in a later post. Last night I was in bed trying to get to sleep when I mentally started plotting out this mindmap. I could finally see the connections between various parts of my illness(es?). I […]

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Anxiety Disorder

What Is My Anxiety Like Now? August 2016 Edition

I know what you’re thinking. “Barely any posts for weeks and now there is a rush of them over a couple of days?” Yeah. The admin stuff is over with the disability support network which means we need to get down to the nitty gritty about finding employment. Now I may not be well enough […]

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Anxiety Disorder

Pushing Myself Harder Is Making Me More Exhausted

At the delightful hour of 5.30 this morning, Glenn kissed me goodbye before he went to work. He passed on this little bit of info: “One of the cats has sprayed over the towels. Could you wash them for me?” Fuuuuuuck! I was already having a shit nights sleep because I’d planned to go to the […]

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Giftedness Therapy

“Why Do You Need Me? You Already Know Everything”

Recently, I accompanied a mate to a psychologist appointment. I’ve been teaching her about some of the strategies I’d found useful and was there just in case she needed help phrasing something. She was talking about how she’d black out, get really angry and have little knowledge about it later. Something I could obviously identify […]